the chem ca SO BLOODY SUCKED today.
i had a bad badd feeling that it was gonna be a tough paper,
and especially when tofu said that ms chan told 3/4 that
if at least 5 people were to pass in the class, she'd be happy enough.
mad.



i didnt even know how to answer the first question!!!!!
what oxide hydroxide AH.
yeah so basically i think im prepared to fail it.
shittttttttttoooooooooo.




then after school,
had to see ms foo.
gosh, im so disappointed right now ):
sigh nevermind.
all our hard work and effort just went..
boom.




then something stupid happened.
we headed to the voideck to put our bags.
so i was digging out my wallet and everything,
and when i stood up..
PIIIIAAAAAAANNNNGGGG!
(and my head hits the fire extinguisher directly above me)
i didnt even know whether to cry cos it was pain,
or laugh at the stupidity of it
but i was damn malu!
haha DAMN THE FIRE EXTINGUISHER
and my blurness.
haha.



we just sat down to talk and talk afterward.
cos none of us had the mood to dance anymore s:
sigh.




answers.
we spend our entire time searching for them.



although sometimes,
answers dont mean anything.
sometimes, i dont want answers.
sometimes, i dont want things to change.
sometimes, i just like being selfish.



but how?
do we find these answers.



they irk like the noise of construction work.
you cant stop it.



all i've been doing,
is blocking it out with
the sound of music.
with the sound of music that does nothing but remind
me of you.



and kelly clarkson sings,
well if you dont have the answer,
why are you still standing here?
hey hey hey hey,
just walk away.



i cant.
you know.
just walk away.



or merely
standing motionlessly.
waiting for you,
looking at you,
thinking of you,
not thinking about you,
avoiding you,
wanting to talk to you.



take a risk,
take a chance,
make a change.
what risk? what chance? what change?




bio spa tomorrow.
wish me luck! (: